During this time, I wasn’t aware that I was actually going through depression.
During this time, I wasn’t aware that I was actually going through depression. It wasn’t until almost a year later that I realized everything I was feeling or going through wasn’t necessarily normal reactions to the high pressure stress and change I was feeling. When I looked back and reflected on the time frame, I look at is as a period of darkness because everything I felt clouded my memories and thoughts around that period of time. I was overwhelmed by work, took on a new part time work from home business and my daughter wasn’t even a year yet.
Going through the emotions just made me feel like I was also failing as a mom because I wasn’t physically or mentally able to put my feelings and emotions aside to just be there for my children and family. I didn’t want to interact or be around anyone because we were in a place that I couldn’t connect to. We were in the process of selling our home and was displaced into an apartment, a very new and beautiful townhome but nonetheless, not mine. That place doesn’t represent a happy moment in time for me. Because I couldn’t connect with it. I never nested. Couldn’t unpack or settle because half of our furniture was staged in our home. I would stay in the bedroom 95% of the time. If my family wanted to interact with me, they came there. We played games in there and watched tv in there. Our home stayed on the market for 7 months before my husband decided enough is enough, I’m brining us back home
Coming home definitely lit a light back inside of me, but didn’t fully bring me back to where I was. It’s during that time of darkness that I particularly remember spending a lot of time in the huge walk in closet in the bedroom. I would sit in there in the phone with my best friend as she prayed me through that time. Every single day. Whether I wanted to or not. She knew something was wrong and made it a point to be a the light I needed in the darkness.
As I had mentioned this point and time, I really did not even know I was going through depression. Now thinking about it this was truly a period of darkness. I would say it started after the move … just changes with work, changes with our living situation. It was just a lot. I predominately remember wanting to always stay to myself. I wanted to be in the room, in the closet to get away and have alone time. It was a huge walk in closet and I would just go in there and sit on the floor. I would talk on the phone and my friend would reach out to call me and pray with me over the phone. I believe this was sincerely the only thing that kept me level at that time.
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Recognizing signs of depression is very important
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Could it be depression?
Being unhappy isn’t the same as being depressed. Depression is a term often used loosely to describe how we feel after a bad week at work or when we’re going through a breakup. But major depressive disorder — a type of depression — is much more complicated. There are specific symptoms that determine whether it’s depression or the sadness we all sometimes experience in life.
Determining if persistent, unshakable dark feelings are a result of depression can be the first step toward healing and recovery. Read through these warning signs to see if it’s time for you to see a mental health professional.
1. Hopeless outlook
Major depression is a mood disorder that affects the way you feel about life in general. Having a hopeless or helpless outlook on your life is the most common symptom of depression.
Other feelings may be worthlessness, self-hate, or inappropriate guilt. Common, recurring thoughts of depression may be vocalized as, “It’s all my fault,” or “What’s the point?”
2. Lost interest
Depression can take the pleasure or enjoyment out of the things you love. A loss of interest or withdrawal from activities that you once looked forward to — sports, hobbies, or going out with friends — is yet another telltale sign of major depression.
Another area where you may lose interest is sex. Symptoms of major depression include a decreased sex drive and even impotence.
3. Increased fatigue and sleep problems
Part of the reason you might stop doing things you enjoy is because you feel very tired. Depression often comes with a lack of energy and an overwhelming feeling of fatigue, which can be among the most debilitating symptoms of depression. This could lead to excessive sleeping.
Depression is also linked with insomnia, as one might lead to the other and vice versa. They can also make each other worse. The lack of quality, restful sleep can also lead to anxiety.
4. Anxiety
While depression hasn’t been shown to cause anxiety, the two conditions often occur together. Symptoms of anxiety can include:
- nervousness, restlessness, or feeling tense
- feelings of danger, panic, or dread
- rapid heart rate
- rapid breathing
- increased or heavy sweating
- trembling or muscle twitching
- trouble focusing or thinking clearly about anything other than the thing you’re worried about
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Consult a doctor for medical advice
Sources: https://www.healthline.com/health/depression/recognizing-symptoms#anxiety
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